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[Thursday July 17 2008 @ 11:43 am] [ music | Buddah Bar ] FUCK PEOPLE. I hate their bullshit.

[Friday July 11 2008 @ 8:43 am] [ music | Baby Acoustic - Chiodos ] I'm glad I made that phone call. It made me feel much better.

[Saturday June 28 2008 @ 12:17 pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Bass Hunter ] I just don't understand anymore. It's been consuming me  and I can't stop fucking thinking. I didn't do anything. I don't understand. I need to get over it. Just get over everything. Cause it's not worth going this crazy over. Maybe it's just the birth control making me go crazy. Anywho, something that does't make me upset. Birthday was the other day. Didn't do much, just thought I would see more people. Whatever. Vince pretty much made my day. Went out to dinner at maki maki. He got me the cutest card ever. So cute it makes you like cry. 200 to metro park. And a buttload of candy.

[Thursday May 29 2008 @ 5:51 pm] [ mood | aggravated ] What the fuck.

[Thursday May 15 2008 @ 6:18 pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | Death Cab For Cutie ] I've been talking with Matt  about philosophical things. About appreciating what you have. I've come to realize that most take everything for granite. I'm not going to do that. Despite my shitty mood lately, I've been looking at things in a different way now. Just everything. And. I love Vince, I don't know what I would do without him. He is my everything. Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Me in the butthole. I need to quit smoking cigarettes. We both do.

[Monday April 21 2008 @ 9:41 pm]  Jesus Fucking Christ. I don't know why I put up with Moe. The past few weeks all he has been doing is pissing me the fuck off. Beating around the bush with shit, fucking anyoying, trying to get eveything to go his way, just being a selfish fuck. I didn't even want to say his damn name in the past entrys cause it was pissing me off so much. Uasbgfjhbsdfciuvgh;ivan;u!

[Thursday April 17 2008 @ 11:24 pm] [ mood | drained ] I have no one but Vince. Eh. That's life.

[Wednesday April 16 2008 @ 9:48 pm] [ mood | Stoned. ] [ music | DJ Tiesto ] ...

[Monday April 14 2008 @ 11:09 pm] [ mood | high ] [ music | Coldplay ] Stop beating around the bush. I'm tired of it. And. I've came to a conclusion. No one gives a shit about anyone. Whatever.

[Saturday April 12 2008 @ 9:55 am] [ music | Brand New ] Ew, I have to go to work soon. And I have a paper due in a week or so. Shitttttttttt.  Anywhooooooooooo. Me and Vince are planning to go away for a weekend sometime hopefully soon. Anywhere in Cali, not toooooooooooooo far. LA, San Diego, San Fran, Long Beach, Venice, I dunno.  We really need it.

[Sunday April 6 2008 @ 4:38 pm] [ mood | pessimistic ] [ music | Giant Drag ] I seriously think that I have a problem. A mental problem. Depression, bi-polar, schizophrenia I don't even know For the past month or so, i've just been going crazy. Over anything. I'm just starting to worry myself.  Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsdjhfgasdjbgfvldauhvsfbjuk. I feel like I have no one but Vince and he's the only one keeping me together. And that isn't a good thing. I need to learn how to fucking hang out with myself. Which I can't seem to do at all. I can't handle being alone. It sucks and I'll just start crying about the stupidest shit. I just want to see him, I feel like he's the only one who cares about me. I just can't see him all the time. We both work. I go to school. And now to live at home he has the gayest curfew. I really don't want to go to dinner with the family tonight,  Or go to Six Flags, possibly Universal Studios tomorrow with them.

[Monday March 24 2008 @ 8:03 pm] Dave is back for a few days. Sweet.

[Saturday March 15 2008 @ 9:09 am] [ music | Sublime ] I have a problem.

[Thursday March 13 2008 @ 9:17 pm] [ mood | sick ]  Gah, I hate being sick. And, I finally got this damn skin to be legit.

[Sunday February 24 2008 @ 11:27 pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | Spill Canvas ] Last  night made me realize, that I don't have friends. I called several people, several times to hang out. No answers. No call backs. And if they did answer, it was just lame bullshit. Whatever.

[Monday February 18 2008 @ 11:12 pm] [ music | Brand New ] Ugh, I can't sleep. I passed out earlier after work but now I can't seem to get back to that state. It's been seven long months, and I'm still as happy as ever with him. =] I mean, we still need to work on certain things but hey, that's life I suppose. Lalalalalaalala. I'm bored. Back to the sheets.

[Wednesday February 6 2008 @ 12:16 am] [ mood | tired ]  Mentally and physically.

[Friday February 1 2008 @ 7:16 pm]  Please disregard the entry below.

[Tuesday January 29 2008 @ 8:39 am]  I hope to god it's not happening. If it is I'd just about kill myself. I can't go through it anymore.

[Sunday January 13 2008 @ 9:46 pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | Alicia Keys - If I ain't got you ] That phone call pretty much made my day even better. Thanks homie. Love and miss you. My parents were gone this weekend for  the most part. But my aunt and siblings were home with me. It was all good though. Just chilled and played rock band and guitar hero. Vince spent the night last night and I pretty much spent the whole day with him. Waking up next to him is just heaven. I can never get that kid out of my head. I never get sick of seeing him. I seriously am in love with him.

[Thursday January 3 2008 @ 2:08 pm] [ mood | annoyed ] It's gunna cost $1,000 to get my car fixed. It's fucking bullshit. And I won't get my car until tonight. Hopefully.

[Wednesday January 2 2008 @ 10:37 am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Plus 44 - Baby Come On ] New years, what a night. A very sober night. Drove drunk kids around. Took care of drunk kids. God damnit, some times I want to be the drunk kid. Whatever. They all went home safe, which is good. Went to two parties. One highschool bullshit. And a fucking legit funny shit party. Kids couldn't give away alcohol. Parents were chill. Funny shit went down. It started getting boring when EVERYONE is wasted beyond their gords and you are not. Some how draged them out of the party and went home. Vince came over for a bit, then I took him home. We had our fun. =] But, I must say it was the best byfar. HAhahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahhaha.  But anywhooooooooooooo. My car is broken and about to explode. It's at the dealership right now and pretty much for the rest of the day. I'm fucking bored at home. Maybe someone will hang out with me and drive my ass around for once, haha.

[Wednesday December 19 2007 @ 10:33 am] [ mood | lethargic ] [ music | Brand New ] Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy do I feel like I'm PMSing twenty-four-seven!?!?!?!?!???? GRRRRRRRRRRR. I've been so damn emotional lately. Like crying at the smallest shit. Someone didn't call me back. Start balling my eyes out. What the fuckkkk? I'm so confussed. Anywho. Christmas. Vince got me an ipod touch thingy mabobby. It's really cool and like shiny. And a glitter lamp thingy that's pretty. I got him a sweatshirt, RockBand and some funny shit from spencers, haha. He liked it so it's allhood. I'm really bored and can't fall back asleep. I really need to get birthcontrol again. But not through plan parent hood. They suck. I need to go through my doctor, but how the fuck am I gunna hide it from my mom? Shitttttttttt. I think I'm gunna try and do the shot again? Possibly the pill, but I know I will forget to take them. I should really get ready for the day. I need to turn in my books. And buy new ones. I kinda want to get new shoes. And earrings. I need a new job. Like receptionist type I suppose I want to find. Some where I can sit on my butt occasionally and not have to stand up for eight fucking hours straight.  Any dank suggestions? I feel like I just racked a line. Why do I feel so cracked out? My pointless rambles are starting to piss me off. Like what I'm doing right now. There's like no point to them, ever. I'm gay.

[Saturday December 15 2007 @ 10:09 am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Plus 44 - Make you smile ] I don't, don't want to take you home. Please don't, don't make me sleep alone. If I could, I'd only want to make you smile. If  you wanna stay with me a while. My parents need to go out of town. Or we just need to get away.

[Sunday December 9 2007 @ 8:31 pm] [ music | Yeah yeah yeahs - Maps (Acoustic) ] Ugh, I'm so tired from working so much. I end up taking my first breaks when I'm supposed to be taking my lunch. I've been coming in early and staying later. It's getting to be a little too much. My paycheck better be fat on friday. Which reminds me I have a credit card bill to pay. Ew. Anywhooooooooooo. Nothing happens, ahhhhhhhhhhhh. Nothing is new. It's been six months this past friday. =] 06-07-07

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